He's the only one I think about at night
Igår sov jag runt 1-3 timmar och i förr igår sov, jag inte så mkt mer.. Även fast jag är trött så kan jag inte sova. Har ätit som en fet häst idag, så jag ska ut me ett par hundar bara för att förbränna lite. Jag är trött men det skiter jag i, det är ju kul att hinna med saker som man inte kunde för att man måste sova.
Åh, gud vad sjukt det lät...
Invisible
Maybe I should've seen the signs, should've read the writing on the wall.
And realized by the distance in your eyes that I would be the one to fall.
No matter what you say I still can't believe that you would walk away.
It don't make sense to me, but why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart now?
Why would you wanna make the very first scar?
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
It's not unbroken anymore... How do I get it back the way it was before?
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
Så jävla värdelös min söndag kommer vara. Mår typ hur dåligt som helst, har inte ätit ngt speciellt så jag borde må bra. Men det gör jag inte.. Oron från igår är något värre, även fast jag har fått kontakt med Oliver. Det är otroligt hur en sak kan förändra hela världen. Eller iaf min värld...
Taylor Swift - Cold As You
I can't believe I fell for this
Nej, nu skiter jag i er. Jag har inget att bevisa för er, jag orkar inget mer drama. Är så jävla trött på det, så fuck off eller nått. Gör vafan ni vill, låt mej leva för typ 10:de gången den här veckan.
So sick
Varför kommenterar man anonymt flera gånger? IP nummret sparas. Varför kommentera taskigt, jo för att man är sååå jävla avis på mej antagligen. Jag kanske är en bitch, men jag är inte feg. Jag kan ringa och säga det jag tycker, jag kommenterar inte taskigt.
Och vem är det som är omogen Anna Liljeflod? Är det verkligen jag? Tjejen som du aldrig har träffat eller är det du?
Jag kör mitt eget race på mitt sätt, på mina egna villkor, på min egen väg och framför allt hur jag vill. Så sluta kommentera Anna, du gör saken bara värre. Tyvärr så tog jag bort ditt nummer för 100 år sen så jag kan inte ringa dej och säga exakt vad jag tycker om detta. Men du ville kommentera bloggen så, fine. Jag svarar på bloggen.
Och till er andra (för andra gången) sluta läs bloggen för att hata mej. Skaffa ett liv.
PEACE OUT!
A meaningless diversion that is all that you ever meant to me
Jag vet inte om jag har älskat dej på riktigt nånsin. Jag önskar att jag hade accepterat att du var upptagen så skulle jag inte vara i den här jävla skiten. Fast då hade jag ju aldrig träffat Oliver så jag tackar dej lite. Du har gjort mej lite starkare tror jag.
Jag har slösat mer en 365 dagar på dej. Hur kunde jag hålla på så länge? Vad såg jag i dej? Varför slösade jag mina pengar på dej?
En sak vet jag. Att jag aldrig kommer gå tillbaka till dej för du är en av dom mest omognaste som jag nånsin träffat.
I början fattade du, men sen blev du en jävla barn unge. Jag har sagt att jag inte vill att du messar, du gör det ändå. Du är ju nästan värre än Daggmasken, och då är det ILLA.
Jag har gått vidare, gör det oxå för fan!
Demi Lovato - Everything you're not
I am done with your twisted symphony
The words that had me sound like stolen poetry
I tore the pages and I can finally breathe...
Gift of a friend
Sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself
Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone
It's easy to feel like you don't need help
But it's harder to walk on your own
When you have a friend by your side that helps you to find the beauty you are when you'll open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend
Someone who knows when your lost and your scared
There through the highs and the lows
Someone you can count on, someone who cares besides you where ever you go
And when your hope crashes down shattering to the ground you'll feel all alone when you dont know which way to go and there's no signs leading you home
You're Not Alone
Now that I'm proud to admit that we're done...
I throw all of your stuff away, then I clear you out of my head.
I tear you out of my heart and ignore all your messages.
I tell everyone we are through cause I'm so much better without you.
But it's just another pretty lie cause I break down every time you come around.
So how did you get here under my skin? I swore that I'd never let you back in. Should have known better in trying to let you go cause here we go go go again.
Hard as I try I know I can't quit.
Something about you is so addictive.
We're falling together.
You'd think that by now I'd know cause here we go go go again.
You never know what you want and you never say what you mean but I start to go insane every time that you look at me.
You only hear half of what I say and you're always showing up too late and I know that I should say goodbye but it's no use can't be with or without you.
Låt mej va....
I can tell that you're into me baby. It's so plain to see. I can see it in your eyes, you're paralyzed every time I pass you by and you're the kind that gets your way every minute, every single day.
I can see it all in your face, you're blown away cause I don't want you in my space.
You're struttin' 'round here, like you think that I can't do without you. You got some nerve to think that I would give up everything.
Slow down baby, and don't act crazy. Don't you know, you can look all you want, but you just can't touch. So slow down baby, I'm not your lady.
Boy you're never gonna get it from me cause I'm with someone. After all of the games you played, how's it feel to finally get a taste? You can dish it out, but can you take the bed you've made?
Go lie in it for a change I'm not falling for your stupid lines.
I know you've used 'em 'bout a thousand times.
You say 'em like they were a nursery rhyme but I won't buy it, baby don't you even try. You're coming 'round here like you think that everything's about you.
If you knew anything you'd realize I wear a ring.
Do you really wanna waste your time? Don't you have better things to do in life? Listen, I don't wanna get you down but I ain't never gonna mess around.
So, how many ways do I have to say leave me alone?
Everything changes, starting today
Jag brukade vara den som var blygast. Den som inte vågar säga nånting. Men under dom senaste dagarna har jag gjort saker som jag bara brukade drömma om. Jag är så stolt över mej själv! Jag visste inte att jag kunde vara så här. Det är otroligt hur mycket man kan förändras på ett år. Jag kanske är lycklig? Nej, inte än. Så fort går det inte. Men nära, jag är på kanten mellan förr och lycka.
3/9-10
Min piercing
Jag skulle ju fått en piercing i torsdags men det blev inte så nu ska jag komma till skolan så jag får min piercing!!
Det är ju ändå bara ett jävla år, det ska jag ju kunna fixa. Och det ska jag, det här är ju bara löjligt. Om dom i klassen väljer att frysa ut så, fine. Jag klarar mej utan er. Det är ju så synd att på skolan är det så tydliga "klickar". Jag fattar inte varför man dömer efter utseende...
Söndag
Jag fattar inte hur det går att bråka med folk som bor 60 mil ifrån en. Och till och med lite mer.. Jag är så trött på allt bråk. Förr gillade jag att bo här för att jag slapp allt bråk hos mamma, men nu kommer man hem till en jävla surkäring och hennes jävla avkomma som inte är så mycket gladare.
Det har inte hänt ett skit som är värt att berätta, förutom att jag har blivit dissad av alla möjliga personer.
Asså förlåt om jag har förstört eran söndag, men jag måste faktiskt få ut allt det här ur mej.
Stockholms resa
Igår blev en spontan Stockholms resa skapad! Den skulle bli sååå mycket mer fun om jag hade varit me sweetie... Men det funkade tror jag.
Jag köpte en hel del kläder och ja... Kläder helt enkelt! Har på mej en hel outfit från Stockholm idag, ett randigt linne från BikBok och jeansleggings från Vero Moda.
Fast nu när jag tänker efter så köpte jag en cam och en väska... Men det mesta var faktiskt kläder.
Vissa brukar köpa något att äta medan dom shoppar men i mana ögon är det bara slöseri med pengar. Asså tänk efter, om man typ äter på resturang för nån hundring och sen går man på rond 2 och hittar ett linne som man skulle haft råd med om man inte hade ätit.
Det är min syn på mat. Man kan göra så mycket roliga saker för pengarna man spenderar på mat!
Jaja, tillbaka till resan. Jag åkte buss till Muppsala och med tåg från Muppsala till Stockholm City! Jag har typ åkt tåg en gång för länge sen, så detta var en minnesvärd händelse. Och resan kostade bara 92kr tur och retur! Så jag kan ju bara komma och åka hur jag vill, hihi!
Men helt seriöst, jag tänker åka dit igen på höstlovet me älsklingen, för han vill gå på BlueFox. Jag vill helst slippa det men han kommer hela vägen från Umeå så vad ska man göra?
i hope you understand
I used to think that happiness could only be something that happened to somebody else. Everybody believed, everybody but me. And I've been hurt so many times before, that my hopes was dying, so sick of trying. Everybody could see, everybody but me. But then you came into my life, you opened up my softer side and now I can see into your eyes. And suddenly, I realize.
All the times you didn't understand, why you couldn't just be my man. There were many walls you had to climb, if you really wanted to be mine. After all the hoops I put you through, now I see that I'm in love with you. Now, I hope you finally understand.
So many tears I had to cry but you had many more of your own you had to dry.
But you stuck it out, and you're here with me now and rememberin' the days I pushed away your love. You called my bluff and you still stayed around.
You figured me out. Said, you got me down and there's no way to lie to you. You know me better than I do.
Baby, you see me through, I'd be no good without you. Baby, won't you listen now, can't you see just what I'm talking 'bout?
Time went on, and I was wrong to keep my distance for so long. So afraid you wouldn't stay but you never turned away. Always right by my side you're forever in my life. Don't you go cause now I know that in you I found a home, now I can see into your eyes.
All the times you didn't understand, why you couldn't just be my man. There were many walls you had to climb, if you really wanted to be mine. After all the hoops I put you through, now I see that I'm in love with you. Now, I hope you finally understand.
So many tears I had to cry but you had many more of your own you had to dry.
But you stuck it out, and you're here with me now and rememberin' the days I pushed away your love. You called my bluff and you still stayed around.
You figured me out. Said, you got me down and there's no way to lie to you. You know me better than I do.
Baby, you see me through, I'd be no good without you. Baby, won't you listen now, can't you see just what I'm talking 'bout?
Time went on, and I was wrong to keep my distance for so long. So afraid you wouldn't stay but you never turned away. Always right by my side you're forever in my life. Don't you go cause now I know that in you I found a home, now I can see into your eyes.
♥♥♥♥♥
It's not so easy loving me, it gets so complicated. All the things you gotta be, everything's changing. But you're the truth. I'm amazed by all your patience, everything I put you through. When I'm about to fall, somehow you're always waiting with your open arms to catch me.
You're gonna save me from myself.
My love is tainted by your touch. Well, some guys have shown me aces but you've got that royal flush. I know it's crazy everyday. Well, tomorrow may be shaky but you never turn away.
Don't ask me why I'm crying, cause when I start to crumble, you know how to keep me smiling.
You always save me from myself.
I know it's hard, it's hard but you've broken all my walls. You've been my strength, so strong.
And don't ask me why I love you, it's obvious your tenderness is what I need to make me a better woman to myself. To myself.
You're gonna save me from my myself.
You're gonna save me from myself.
My love is tainted by your touch. Well, some guys have shown me aces but you've got that royal flush. I know it's crazy everyday. Well, tomorrow may be shaky but you never turn away.
Don't ask me why I'm crying, cause when I start to crumble, you know how to keep me smiling.
You always save me from myself.
I know it's hard, it's hard but you've broken all my walls. You've been my strength, so strong.
And don't ask me why I love you, it's obvious your tenderness is what I need to make me a better woman to myself. To myself.
You're gonna save me from my myself.
I wont give up
I found myself today, I found myself and ran away.
Something pulled me back, a voice of reason, I forgot I had.
All I know is you're not here to say, what you always used to say.
But it's written in the sky tonight!
So I won't give up, no, I won't break down.
Sooner than it seems life turns around and I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong.
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe, someone's watching over me.
I've seen that ray of light and it's shining on my destiny.
Shining all the time and I won't be afraid, to follow everywhere it's taking me.
All I know is yesterday is gone, and right now I belong to this moment, to my dreams.
It doesn't matter what people say and it doesn't matter how long it takes.
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high.
And it only matters how true you are, be true to yourself and follow your heart.
Something pulled me back, a voice of reason, I forgot I had.
All I know is you're not here to say, what you always used to say.
But it's written in the sky tonight!
So I won't give up, no, I won't break down.
Sooner than it seems life turns around and I will be strong, even if it all goes wrong.
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe, someone's watching over me.
I've seen that ray of light and it's shining on my destiny.
Shining all the time and I won't be afraid, to follow everywhere it's taking me.
All I know is yesterday is gone, and right now I belong to this moment, to my dreams.
It doesn't matter what people say and it doesn't matter how long it takes.
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high.
And it only matters how true you are, be true to yourself and follow your heart.
Östhammar
Ingen kan se dig ingen vill fråga dig om hjälp, här i staden.
Alla ska bli nåt ingen är ingen speciell, här i staden.
Ingen bryr sig ingen hör dig eller ser, här i staden.
Husen skymmer inga blommor växer mer, här i staden.
Allting är viktigt alla har bråttom, det går fort, här i staden.
Alla ska bli en ny person, här i staden.
Alla sliter, alltid trötta från igår, här i staden.
Allt kan bytas inget lever längre än ett år.
För i staden växer inga blommor, nej i staden växer inga blommor...
Alla ska bli nåt ingen är ingen speciell, här i staden.
Ingen bryr sig ingen hör dig eller ser, här i staden.
Husen skymmer inga blommor växer mer, här i staden.
Allting är viktigt alla har bråttom, det går fort, här i staden.
Alla ska bli en ny person, här i staden.
Alla sliter, alltid trötta från igår, här i staden.
Allt kan bytas inget lever längre än ett år.
För i staden växer inga blommor, nej i staden växer inga blommor...
I decide
Don't think that you can tell me what to think. I'm the one who knows what's good for me and I'm stating my independence.
I'm gonna take the road I'm gonna take and I'm gonna make my own mistakes.
It's my life and I decide.
I decide, how I live. I decide, who I love.
The choice is mine and no one gets to make my mind up.
I decide where I go, what I need, who I know.
I'm the one who's running my life.
Don't think you're ever gonna hold me down.
I couldn't do it then and I can't do it now. I'm kicking down all the fences.
I'm gonna do it all and do too much and if I mess the whole thing up;
It's my right and I decide.
I'm taking my own chances, I'm finding my own answers. I'm only answering to me and that's the way it's gonna be.
I'm gonna take the road I'm gonna take and I'm gonna make my own mistakes.
It's my life and I decide.
I decide, how I live. I decide, who I love.
The choice is mine and no one gets to make my mind up.
I decide where I go, what I need, who I know.
I'm the one who's running my life.
Don't think you're ever gonna hold me down.
I couldn't do it then and I can't do it now. I'm kicking down all the fences.
I'm gonna do it all and do too much and if I mess the whole thing up;
It's my right and I decide.
I'm taking my own chances, I'm finding my own answers. I'm only answering to me and that's the way it's gonna be.
Breakaway
Grew up in a small town and when the rain would fall down, I'd just stare out my window.
Dreamin' of what could be and if I'd end up happy, I would pray.
Trying hard to reach out, but when I tried to speak out.
Felt like no one could hear me. Wanted to belong here but something felt so wrong here.
So I prayed I could breakaway.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky and I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change and breakaway.
Out of the darkness and into the sun but I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway.
I wanna feel the warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree and feel the rush of the ocean.
Get on board a fast train travel on a jetplane, far away and breakaway.
Buildings with a hundred floors, swinging round revolving doors.
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but I gotta keep moving on, moving on.
Fly away, breakaway.
Dreamin' of what could be and if I'd end up happy, I would pray.
Trying hard to reach out, but when I tried to speak out.
Felt like no one could hear me. Wanted to belong here but something felt so wrong here.
So I prayed I could breakaway.
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky and I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change and breakaway.
Out of the darkness and into the sun but I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway.
I wanna feel the warm breeze, sleep under a palm tree and feel the rush of the ocean.
Get on board a fast train travel on a jetplane, far away and breakaway.
Buildings with a hundred floors, swinging round revolving doors.
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but I gotta keep moving on, moving on.
Fly away, breakaway.
Skolångest
Skolan börjar på onsdag och jag vet inte hur jag ska göra. Jag brukar alltid gå med nån när det är "första" skoldagen. Men nu blir jag ensam, det känns jävligt konstigt. Och vad ska jag ha på mej? Jag vill inte vara för uppklädd men jag vill inte se ut som att jag har tagit det första plagget i garderoben. Jag vill ha en stor munktröja, strumbyxor och converse. Och sminket? Typ långa ögonfransar, lite lagom sotade ögon och ljusa läppar?
Jaja, det blir säkert bra.
Hur känner ni inför skolstarten?
Jaja, det blir säkert bra.
Hur känner ni inför skolstarten?
